So it’s about time for a quick update. And some hopefully cathartic rambling.
So far, I have nine Particle ideas on the boil. Most of them are still in fairly formative stages as yet, but I’m making headway little by little. This week, I’ve enlisted the awesome Mitch Bruzzese to bring his funky beats to some of the tracks as they come up, so I’m excited to hear what comes from the collaboration.
Yet sometimes it seems so little headway is being made.
And now the doubts creep in
If I hadn’t actually committed to the project and had it as a goal of sorts, it may have never happened. I’m finding it quite hard to eke out meaningful hours of creativity after a full day’s work and a few hours of family business. The most I can do is to squeeze out a couple of hours before I need to get some sleep before the pre-6am wakeup the next morning. Probably trying to burn too much of the proverbial candle, so I just end up tired and uncreative.
I’ve also witnessed some awesome players doing astounding things recently. That’s been both inspiring and depressing. It’s been inspiring because these people are playing things that are beautiful, technical and extreme. It’s also been a little depressing because I have no idea whether the quality of the things that I create will live up to the high standards that I expect from myself. Not entirely sure if I can ever live up to that, I guess.
Forging a path
Nevertheless, despite getting bogged down with life and tiredness, I’m still committed to Particles. I’m becoming convinced that if I want to make meaningful headway, I’ll need to be fairly ruthless with my time. I’ve been working out how I’m going to structure my time more efficiently, and that’ll get easier as I get used to working in a more streamlined fashion. That means more time devoted to meaningful things and less time for frivolous things (but not at the expense of people).
Right now, the most meaningful thing I can do for tonight is to go to bed, so that’s where I’m headed.
Hopefully with dreams of haunting melodies and complex harmonies
ADDENDUM
To help with collaboration, we’ll be using the excellent Dropbox to share files. Check it out, it’s fantastic.